Birth Trauma
Around the turn of the 1970s I re-experienced something of my birth...or "rebirth" into this world. It took place in Spain. I was a child, and I had curled up into the foetal position on the back seat of my parents car.
Whilst sleeping, I entered into a "low" "sub-normal" state of conciousness...I was aware of being unable to move. I was having trouble breathing. Infact, I felt I was "suffocating".I was trapped in a confined space (ie. the womb). I could see the exit of the birth canal. Instead of a hospital I could see the backs of my parents in the front seat of the car. I was feeling increasingly terrified because of my "immobilisation". I tried to scream out several times....but they were mental screams...and thus, my parents could not hear me...
As this was happening I could hear music. It could have come from the car radio but I do not know. It was like military music of the 18th Century. My late mater was doing some research for a Spanish friend* on the life of Sir John Moore who was killed at one of the battles of the Peninsula War at La Corunna. All this may be just coincidence...I remember too that my mater had "seen" Sir John Moore but this was probably a mental projection...
Whilst sleeping, I entered into a "low" "sub-normal" state of conciousness...I was aware of being unable to move. I was having trouble breathing. Infact, I felt I was "suffocating".I was trapped in a confined space (ie. the womb). I could see the exit of the birth canal. Instead of a hospital I could see the backs of my parents in the front seat of the car. I was feeling increasingly terrified because of my "immobilisation". I tried to scream out several times....but they were mental screams...and thus, my parents could not hear me...
As this was happening I could hear music. It could have come from the car radio but I do not know. It was like military music of the 18th Century. My late mater was doing some research for a Spanish friend* on the life of Sir John Moore who was killed at one of the battles of the Peninsula War at La Corunna. All this may be just coincidence...I remember too that my mater had "seen" Sir John Moore but this was probably a mental projection...
Anyway, my birth trauma experience seemed to go on for awhile, and thankfully it stopped, and I awoke to normal conciousness....I entered the world via Caesarian,section or C section for short, and lived to "tell the tale" so to speak!! Years later she showed me her surgical wound much to my "horror" and surprise. Not a pretty sight..
Anyway, long after all this happened I had a lady friend who claimed she could remember her birth into this world. Unfortunately, or fortunately, she did not give any detail...
I believe that my birth trauma experience effected the early part of my life. Indeed, I believe that it may have stunted my early mental development. At the same time, as indicated in the Realization of the Psychic I believe it may have helped to initiate my early psychic experiences which largely disappeared in my later life.
Since I believe in reincarnation I hope that next time (if necessary ofcourse) my entrance into this world would be less traumatic. Also, I hope to return in female form. Alot of research into hypnotic regression seem to indicate that we can change sex to experience life from a different angle. It might also be an explanation for homosexuality, and bisexuality.
,,,,,Ofcourse, the above description is clearly reminiscent of sleep paralysis. However, there are certain aspects of the experiences which I have not divulged which clearly suggested that I had been re-living the birth trauma..
Anyway, long after all this happened I had a lady friend who claimed she could remember her birth into this world. Unfortunately, or fortunately, she did not give any detail...
I believe that my birth trauma experience effected the early part of my life. Indeed, I believe that it may have stunted my early mental development. At the same time, as indicated in the Realization of the Psychic I believe it may have helped to initiate my early psychic experiences which largely disappeared in my later life.
Since I believe in reincarnation I hope that next time (if necessary ofcourse) my entrance into this world would be less traumatic. Also, I hope to return in female form. Alot of research into hypnotic regression seem to indicate that we can change sex to experience life from a different angle. It might also be an explanation for homosexuality, and bisexuality.
,,,,,Ofcourse, the above description is clearly reminiscent of sleep paralysis. However, there are certain aspects of the experiences which I have not divulged which clearly suggested that I had been re-living the birth trauma..
* The friend mentioned above was called Jaime and he was my mater's pen friend. He worked at the tourist office in Corunna and would send us lots of literature and posters of the sights of Spain to tempt moi and my parents to visit Spain which we duly did on a number of occasions. As he had no children at the time through his first wife Blanca he sent comics and Asterix books in Spanish to me. Presumably, he hoped I would learn his language but I did not. I just knew a few words to get by in Spain.
Before going to live in Windsor I lived at 2 Ditton Road in Langley, Slough. This is mentioned above on the birth Certificate.
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